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When I said you meant the world to me, I didn't know to what extent it was true until I lost you. My last words mark the last time I was able to give it away. Every since then, you were the last one and the only one to have it. That's unfair to others, and to me as I can't give what is mine to whom I choose.
Truth leads to destruction
So why bother with creation?
False loyalty to one's heart
Brings cries of hatred
Hear me roar
Because this (Lycee) lion has courage
And will tear you apart.
lmao. Lycee kids unit.
I actually wrote that in french class, how appropriate...in more ways than one.
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[12 Jun 2007|01:21pm] |
Tamar and Robin left the suite this morning, and are currently on their way home....I don't think it's fully hit me just yet, but I'm still really sad and sitting where Robin's stuff would be right now lol. There's only 3 of us left!! And then tomorrow, Lisel and Bree leave us too. Then I'm the last one on friday. I'm sleeping in my parent's hotel room on thursday night, there's no way I'm going to be in here by myself! Or I'm dragging my matress into Bryan's room haha.
fucking-eh...
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[08 Jun 2007|07:33pm] |
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Look Lisel, I posted on livejournal!! hahaha, fucking hell u guys are being so weird up there, wtf?!?!?! i cant believe u, Tamar, and Robin are currently on top of me right now.
yummy.
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[02 Apr 2007|11:54pm] |
So heres the deal...i've officially been here for 10 years as of this month. And ive appreciated a lot of things since ive been here, and feel extremely lucky that ive had this chance to be here today. this has been a great opportunity. The one thing that stands out the most tho...is the people. Ive grown to love many of my friends here and will never forget them. For those who've known for those 10 years (or so), I want to say i will never forget you and i love you so much. maybe u dont know it but its the truth. maybe we're not as close as we used to be but i still think about a bunch of you everyday. you've been there for me. a lot. how can i forget you? no matter whats happened i always felt like i was the lucky one. and also for those who've known me for a couple of years now i love you bcuz uve stuck by me and i couldnt ask for more. theres a lot of people i appreciate. and frankly i wish ALL of u were at UCSC with me now but everyone's got their thing, and thats the way it is. which is nice bcuz we're all different and thats important.
all of you mean so much to me :)
good luck with school!
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[18 May 2006|12:23am] |
One week until the first test of the BAC (french exit exam)
and we're all going to pull through.
smile, its time. :)
lovely, its all there: Love.
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[09 May 2006|06:58pm] |
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:D
Bobby ur right, theres just too much to catch up on.
looks like everyone's got a special someone...
to be close to.
something i lost.
creo que visto una luz al otro lado del rio
but theres so much more now though it doesnt quite add up
just the way things are.
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[18 Mar 2006|08:58pm] |
march is rele stressful, getting letters of acceptance and rejection, parents freaking out, BAC blanc or finals...etc
we've got to celebrate. tomorrow.
muwhaha.
fuck ucsd, i WILL go to that skool. that rejection letter wont stop me. even if u get rejected from a certain skool there's always a way in. 1) appeal 2) one semester at smc and transfer because ppl who got accepted might not end up going and ppl drop out. 3) go to San Diego State see if i like it if not transfer after one semester which i found out isnt as dificult as i thought 4) go to another uc get a do rele well 4.0 gpa and transfer but dats the impossible option 5) fuck it go to UC Santa Cruz or San Diego State and b happy haha.
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[02 Mar 2006|12:37am] |
mmmm so y the flip do i have a LJ!!!????
cuz seriously i dont need this shit. mmm do i want it tho...? tiens tiens jen sais rien mais jen ais un peu marre.
o right so i can stalk bobby and sarahhhhh. yes yes. STALK!
i cant believe this piece of shit tho....
...i cant fucking sit still and i have a huge 3/4 hour test tomorrow! AH!
my dad came in my room tonight, i think he got all his germs over my comp haha. mmm sickness. so...nan fais chier.
et g froid au cul!
....interesting eh? <3 ive got a heart. but whom is it for?
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[06 Feb 2006|01:59am] |
Rocky Horror Picture Show was alot of fun. holy crap. everyone should go. so many people would have a blast. that shit was awesome. i'll go again and again and again, as many times as possible guh damn. id go right now if i could. such a sweet time.
Joaquim we def need to go together. i know u've been hehe.
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[23 Jan 2006|12:01am] |
team ryouko r my new found lovers. lots of azn love....flexible crazy azn love.
sleeeeeeep is for the weeeeeeeak. shit. does one rele need to sleep?? NAAAH!
mmmm history homework how fascinating. I DONT LIKE IT! wether i do or not it shall b done, not fun but done. *nods*
yes well the daddy-o and i seem to b computer addicts. tho i rele just use it for music and azn love. they hav a zillion videos for me. those bastards arent in california tho. i should move to canada. cuz im DYING to b in the floor...WHATTT?! floor...wall...oy no. id feel trapped if not dead. tiny lil boxy 6 feet under hehehe. scratch scratch. theres a rat on my chair, a spider under my table and a tripple dose of who knows what on my branch. someone should partially get this. quels hommes de classe. tsk tsk.
so im tripping out. yea! love it. no. crazy is not THAT fun now is it, kids?
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[10 Jan 2006|11:42pm] |
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ridiculous hw. o so very ridiculous. mmm lovely eyes. surprised i can still remember them *grumble*
day/night dreaming again. get me off this crazy thang called....love?
damn it was hot today! "its cuz we're in california" fuck yea!
o how i loved oustry's class for once in my life...*phone buzzing* shit...starts laughing cuz its sitting in my lap. o goodness was that funny. torture to the guys but funny. "Apologize to herrrr!" "fuck it i dont care" *Sits there laughing her ass off* open close open close open close muwhahaha!
Why is everybody talking about valentine's day!!?!?!?!! its more than a month away. fuck valentines day hahaha. crap, im gonna b seeing alot of pink uuugh.
o sweet day of love, bite me.
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[06 Jan 2006|01:40am] |
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[05 Jan 2006|11:51pm] |
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wen did Livejournal bcome so pimp?!!?!? i dont remember this happening...not dat i go on livejournal much. ill go on once in a few months haha. except for right now i guess. im getting a lil bak into it. tis fun. :) and i get to stay tuned it with certain ppl... <3
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[04 Jan 2006|10:36pm] |
back to skool!! hopefully every1 had a bitchin' vacation...
happy new years to all!!!! ou bonne chance au BAC si vs faites prof.
so glad 2005 is overrrrrr. sweetass. can we leave for college yet?!!?!?
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deception, ignorance, hurt, tears, pain, naive, nervous, heartbreaking, treason, annoyance, confusion, hate, death...u dont need to erase and rewind, cry breath but in the end say wut u need to say.
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[18 Oct 2005|04:10pm] |
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Don't worry, be happy dooooooo do do do doo doo doo doo do doo doo do.
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[17 Oct 2005|11:14pm] |
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wow i really do hate this yet love it at the same time. its not fair, this is exactly why i've NEVER been like this, to avoid me feeling like this for sumthing in my logic isnt a big deal but my feelings dont seem to believe the same thing. i go from one extreme to another in no time and no im not PMSing, i kinda wish i was cuz that would support me w/ a reasonnable reason of y im like this. nope, i can go from smiling like a 7th grader to on the verge of tears. why and how did this happen? i cant think straight, my tongue gets tangled up, so much blood rushs to my head, i start to hyperventilate, this cannot be bloody healthy.
i was rude, annoying, not interresting, loud, and i couldnt control much.
je vais me foutre au couvent et finis les histoires. j'en aurais plus rien a faire.
i almost wish sum1 would hit me w/ a metal bat across my face, or my phone magically rings and everything is ok.
on top of all that nightmares came bak. fuckin-eh.
~La plus grosse conne du monde.
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[06 Oct 2005|10:49pm] |
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hubaahdaaaa ooo my god! yes he is. blaaahhh *blush* its...i dont kno haha.
sux dat im sick...tsk tsk. *gross*
but u know wut isnt?!!?!? muwhahaha......mmmmmm
ive never danced so much this week. i just get up from my chair and start dancing or just do it wen theres musik.
guh this is o so VERY new to me. i feel so unexperienced...in a way.
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[05 Oct 2005|03:08am] |
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Somehow i love how everything just fell into where it is now. People say ive made mistakes yet they tell us thats how we grow. "We grow from our mistakes" How many times have we heard that? "Blind acceptance can be hazardous" When you find out a mistake led to pain and hurt not necessarily by the same person, you get mad, frown and point your finger then u cry. Helping them realize their mistake, their "fault"? it was my own fault even tho u might say otherwise. it hurts to hear both. wether u kno me well or little. it happens alot and u wouldnt think it would. it was a mistake i could of avoided but sumtimes u just never know, and dats the beauty of it at sum point. i dont want to be safe, fuck it. i want to see truth, good and bad. i want it all and to be able to handle it. sure i wont ask for it, cuz dats self-destruction no? no matter how "fucked up" it was, it got me here, im here now, im the one breathing, might of not done it on my own, but i take deeper breaths to make it last longer. the reason for my smile is because of wut happened. yes its hard, rele hard. i might of sliped and fell, hell i did it many many times. but i love the feeling of getting bak up w/ or w/out help wether sum1 is standing there or not, its a beautiful feeling. it takes awhile. i see sum1 standing there now...all i see is light, blinding me, but i walk on w/ my smile. its..wow..i dont kno wut it is, completly new to me. no words to describe it, crazy aint it ;) oy.
Sometimes u only let ur words slighty peak out. scared? worried? or is it like art? you draw, you write, you paint, you sculp but erase it all or destroy it because isnt ur love for it enuf? *unless its a message, etc* you created it, it was for u. ur happy dat it came out of u sumhow tho dont we need our work to make it better, to see our mistakes?
Again, mistakes. sumthing dats familiar to me now. at the end of the chain is violence,is there rele a time for it. defending urself. been taught how. didnt click. dont cry. should it be any different now? wont happen again right? no :)
ive never payed so much attention to sumthing ive already heard bout b4, wut is it? its different :) this. i read...enjoying every word.
words intimidate me :) tho i read on to see the end, the finishing touches are wut make sumthing great *and the work put into it* i can see it, and i understand, but this as a whole everything...huh? i'm...smiling like a 7th grader? shit haha.
not like b4, not like now. i proved u wrong and u dont even kno it :) i smile cuz of it all.
love love love. looooove
mmm first interresting/pointless/babble :) hehehe livejournal deleted this whole thing tho. re-wrote it. "erasing words" 2nd draft better?
o no wut have i done? :) i'm sick and bak on my wonderful "sleep" schedule. lol.
LOOOOOOOOOVE! hahaha...love.
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